- Stranger: So what are some of your favorite bands?
- Inner Monologue: How gay do I want to sound?
I am glad I could clear up that confusion, Anon.
I did! It was slwhiteside, but I decided that I wasn’t fond of having my name as my url. And thanks for liking my blog :)
Let me preface this by saying about a year ago, I had a complete emotional breakdown. I lost 12 pounds in two weeks because I refused to eat, my grades suffered, my personal relationships went to hell, and I was a complete and utter mess. Like all well intentioned depressed people, I sought refuge in a friend.
The woman I spoke with told me: “your thoughts are not your friends.” I thought that was the most profound, truthful statement that ever fell off of someone’s lips. I believed it, I really did. I went around for the better part of a year thinking my thoughts were my worst enemy, and if I could keep myself busy enough, I wouldn’t have to come to terms with what I was thinking and subsequently feeling. Well, here’s the deal—your thoughts are all you have. Synapse to synapse; we are comprised of an endless array of thoughts and intentions.
I know it is absolutely terrifying to be in your own head. Coming to terms with your thoughts is horrific. You have to be able to overcome that initial fear, and really get to know your thoughts and their motives.
I know from experience that being introspective is scary. Honestly, it’s the worst feeling in the world, but I also know it is so worth it. It gets easier. The more time you spend with yourself and trying to figure things out, the better you will be able to navigate the inner workings of your brain.
Spend some time with yourself, and learn to appreciate your thoughts.